The author reflects on their experience with the video game Trails in the Sky 1st Chapter, specifically the final boss battle, which they struggled to complete for over a month. They initially felt frustrated and disappointed, believing they had put in enough effort to win. However, they eventually decided to put the game aside, fearing they had grown rusty and would lose again. This led to a cycle of avoidance, where they avoided playing the game for weeks, even though they knew the solution to their initial failure.
The author's behavior can be attributed to a desire to grasp at the outer edges of victory, only to have it snatched away, and a sense of insult at the game's challenge. They also mention real-life obligations and perceived constraints as factors that contributed to their avoidance. Despite their rational understanding of the situation, they feel like a colossal idiot for their actions.
The author's experience highlights the emotional and psychological aspects of gaming, including the satisfaction of overcoming challenges and the disappointment of failure. It also underscores the importance of finding a balance between perseverance and self-care, especially when dealing with a beloved game that holds personal significance.
